Wednesday, August 8, 2012


So Monday evening I was interviewed by someone from Sidelines Equestrian Magazine. They are planning to run a story about Suki in an upcoming issue. While I am a little disappointed that Suki was not among the winners of the Super Model contest, I am thrilled that Sidelines is interested in our story. When I entered the contest, the 50-word required essay caught the attention of an editor at the magazine. They will be speaking to Suki's veterinarians and to Kelly who took care of Suki at her rehab farm.
One of the questions that I was asked was "what was the hardest part of this incident?" For me, thinking about that night my biggest concern was how frightened Suki must have been, and the pain of being burned. It truly hurts my heart. But I think of how brave she was, unable to see because her eyes were burned and swollen completely shut, that she followed the sound and smell of her friend Whisby, who guide her to safety. Even now, 3 years later, it brings tears to my eyes. I look at Suki now and she is happy and healthy, but that night must have been so terrifying for her. I know that it was for me!

All of this always helps with the book. As I re-visit the emotion from the night of the fire and the weeks, months and years that followed I pull additional memories and insights from that night.

I was also asked what was the best part , or "good things" that have come out of the tragedy. I have met, either physically or virtually, so many wonderful people since the fire. The fact that Suki has been able to inspire so many people fills my heart with joy. Suki has a beautiful soul and hopefully can continue to show people that when you are at your lowest and darkest moment, lift your head and forge on. It may not be easy and there may be many obstacles, but in the end, you can overcome and find happiness. That was the turning point in Suki's recovery. Within 24 hours she lifted her head and we never looked back.

Again I am faced with the fact that the dream may not turn out the way you envisioned it, but if you push on, you will be able to see the positive. This has been a struggle for me that few people realize. I have always put on the "brave face", willing myself to believe it. But now, I DO believe it, and I do feel the good that has emerged. I would be lying if I did not admit that I sometimes have the "if only" thoughts. Some days I am envious of the horses that were not injured, and wish that I was able to ride both girls every day. My two girls have different purposes, and both of their jobs are important. These are the lessons that I hope to convey in the children's book, and to my son.

Okay, so off of my soap box! The newly adapted sheet seems to be working well, after one night out! Once I replace the foam with neoprene, I believe we will be bandage free! YAY!

It was a little warm tonight and the horses were just being fed so I decided against a lunging session. Hopefully tomorrow. In just a few weeks the girls will be together and I will have more riding time on Nikki, and quality time with both girls!


  1. When you outgrow, or are forced to discard your dreams/goals, then you develop new ones. You don't screech in pity or wallow in hold your head high & move on. New dreams are just as valid, as wonderful, as the old. That is the lesson I take from you & Suki.

    1. Thank you. It is not always easy, though, is it! But I think that we grow and learn.

      Take care.